High school buddies are like walking archives of yourself, you meet up with them and all the awkwardness and silliness of clumsy flirting, expert cheating and naive break-ups hit you like a slap on the face, sudden but not as painful as you thought it would be.
Mickie was like our prom queen, only, you know, queen. He was the first among us to kiss a boy, to openly flirt, to fall in love, and I suppose, to get his heart broken. I would watch from the stone benches around the school quadrangle how he worked the boys, and it was just magical. He was the key to a portal, an alternate reality to gayville.
Dab was quiet, sometimes awkward, and very stiff. Like he had some weird bone disease, cemented joints. A tinman who had played volleyball and sang Jose Mari Chan songs. Sometimes, at the same time.
I rarely thought of them after finishing high school. And never really missed them. Thinking back now, I did cut them off like a leg. Diabetic and useless. I just wanted to move on from the rejection, the laughed at spelling bee champion.
14 years later, and it doesn't really matter. Fact is, we all laughed and loved our young hearts out. Together, mean and brilliant and innocent. And drinking together now is, I don't know, like being in the then and now. A temporal fold in the space-time continuum where we are grown-ups and children at the same time.
Mickie is still graceful, still coy and majestic. Dab, dark-eyed and now gay, has a welcome sweetness. A real warm smile, as palpable as heat.
Dab flew over to South Africa last week where he will manage his father's printing press business. And I can't get over it, can't jump across the void he has left. It has been a four-month reunion, of careful catching-up and careless drinking. And suddenly this.
Friday, March 4
Friday, February 11
Music Meme 2
*courtesy of geek dawg is-it-safe.*
*and because there's not much going on. which is good.*
1. What is the total amount of music files on your computer?
4 GB i-tunes, 10 GB wma ... as of February 11, 2005. 4 p.m.
2. The CD you last bought is?
In just now ... Alexi Murdoch's Four Songs, Beulah's Yoko, and Bright Eyes' I'm Wide Awake, It's Morning.
3. What is the song you last listened to before reading this message?
"Bidin' Time," The Reivers
4. Write down 5 songs you often listen to or that mean a lot to you.
From my musicbot's Bus Ride playlist, a soundtrack to traveling, 20 minutes of beginnings and blurry houses.
*and because there's not much going on. which is good.*
1. What is the total amount of music files on your computer?
4 GB i-tunes, 10 GB wma ... as of February 11, 2005. 4 p.m.
2. The CD you last bought is?
In just now ... Alexi Murdoch's Four Songs, Beulah's Yoko, and Bright Eyes' I'm Wide Awake, It's Morning.
3. What is the song you last listened to before reading this message?
"Bidin' Time," The Reivers
4. Write down 5 songs you often listen to or that mean a lot to you.
From my musicbot's Bus Ride playlist, a soundtrack to traveling, 20 minutes of beginnings and blurry houses.
- Prettiest Eyes - The Beautiful South
- Deathly - Aimee Mann
- Almost Home - The Reivers
- If I Can't Change Your Mind - Sugar
- Daddy, You've Been On My Mind - Joan Baez
*word*
Thursday, February 10
Life According to the Eraserheads
*with a little help from Gracie.*
Describe yourself using one band and song titles from that band | |
| Choose a band/artist and answer only in song TITLES by that band: | Eraserheads |
| Are you male or female: | Tamagotchi Baby |
| Describe yourself: | Super Proxy |
| How do some people feel about you: | Hard to Believe |
| How do you feel about yourself: | Bato |
| Describe your ex girlfriend/boyfriend: | Kaliwete |
| Describe your current girlfriend/boyfriend: | Pare Ko |
| Describe where you want to be: | Tindahan ni Aling Nena |
| Describe what you want to be: | Police Woman |
| Describe how you live: | With A Smile |
| Describe how you love: | Huwag Kang Matakot |
| Share a few words of wisdom | Wag Mo Nang Itanong |
Thor According to Tori
Got this pala from Chino's (Itchyworms) site, and I can't stop cross-referencing songs in my head. I'm unstoppable!
Describe yourself using one band and song titles from that band | |
| Choose a band/artist and answer only in song TITLES by that band: | Tori Amos |
| Are you male or female: | Northern Lad |
| Describe yourself: | Strange |
| How do some people feel about you: | iieee |
| How do you feel about yourself: | Way Down |
| Describe your ex girlfriend/boyfriend: | Professional Widow |
| Describe your current girlfriend/boyfriend: | Honey |
| Describe where you want to be: | Past The Mission |
| Describe what you want to be: | Space Dog |
| Describe how you live: | A Sorta Fairytale |
| Describe how you love: | Upside Down |
| Share a few words of wisdom | Don't Make Me Come To Vegas |
Life According to Noel Gallagher
Describe yourself using one band and song titles from that band | |
| Choose a band/artist and answer only in song TITLES by that band: | Oasis |
| Are you male or female: | Little James |
| Describe yourself: | Rock and Roll Star |
| How do some people feel about you: | Half the World Away |
| How do you feel about yourself: | I Hope, I Think, I know |
| Describe your ex girlfriend/boyfriend: | Married With Children |
| Describe your current girlfriend/boyfriend: | Shakermaker |
| Describe where you want to be: | Digsy's Diner |
| Describe what you want to be: | D'yer Wanna Be a Spaceman? |
| Describe how you live: | Cigarettes and Alcohol |
| Describe how you love: | Little By Little |
| Share a few words of wisdom | Live Forever |
Friday, February 4
Player
Inspired by starshuffler's recent entry, I came up with my own playlist, my mix of the week, a lopsided soundtrack to an emotionally uneven series of events that were happening all around me, but not to me. Mabi and I used to kid around that our lives were like black and white French movies, static (and silent) opening sequences in train stations --- reading a book, maybe, or chewing on a pen as people, shadows and headlights pass our unmoving shoulders in synthetic frenzy.
Now, the songs, in particular order.
1. Going Through the Motion - Aimee Mann
2. It's Raining - Quasi
3. Waiting for Sunset - Beulah
4. Stuck on an Island - Liz Phair
5. Here On In - South
6. Recycled Air (live) - Ben Gibbard
7. Headphones - Bjork
8. Sun Comes Up, It's Tuesday Morning - Cowboy Junkies
9. Cold Water - Damien Rice
10. Poor Fractured Atlas - Elvis Costello
11. I Know - Fiona Apple
12. I'm Tongue-Tied - Magnetic Fields
13. The Same Thing You Thought Hard About is the Same Part I Can Live Without - Evan Dando
14. The Final Push of the Sum - Grandaddy
15. Wigout - The Mongols
16. Heaven - Lamb
17. Ctrl-Alt-Delete - Silverman
King of the Jail House
On introducing her new song, King of the Jail House, in the Aimee Mann: Live at St. Anne's DVD: This is a new song ... about a sad, bitter, dysfunctional relationship. Wait. That's all my songs.
Now, the songs, in particular order.
1. Going Through the Motion - Aimee Mann
2. It's Raining - Quasi
3. Waiting for Sunset - Beulah
4. Stuck on an Island - Liz Phair
5. Here On In - South
6. Recycled Air (live) - Ben Gibbard
7. Headphones - Bjork
8. Sun Comes Up, It's Tuesday Morning - Cowboy Junkies
9. Cold Water - Damien Rice
10. Poor Fractured Atlas - Elvis Costello
11. I Know - Fiona Apple
12. I'm Tongue-Tied - Magnetic Fields
13. The Same Thing You Thought Hard About is the Same Part I Can Live Without - Evan Dando
14. The Final Push of the Sum - Grandaddy
15. Wigout - The Mongols
16. Heaven - Lamb
17. Ctrl-Alt-Delete - Silverman
King of the Jail House
On introducing her new song, King of the Jail House, in the Aimee Mann: Live at St. Anne's DVD: This is a new song ... about a sad, bitter, dysfunctional relationship. Wait. That's all my songs.
Tuesday, February 1
Baby, I love your way.
Monday was spent looking for office spaces in Ortigas for W's design office. Tired with the early morning client calls and the mess his design team has been making in the living room, he has finally decided to separate home life with work. First stop was Medical Plaza Suites. The first unit the broker showed us was beside a psychiatric clinic, the second, right next to an obesity center. The view was great, Laguna Bay and an olympic-sized pool below, but, well, obviously.
Mega Plaza was more promising. Rent is cheapo, the space just righto. And it's right across Robinson's Galleria. Original plan was to buy, but since rent's affordable, was able to convince W to hold-off purchasing a space. Will transform home office into entertainment center instead. Woohoo.
Then, so happy with the possibility, W got me an electric guitar --- bare mahogany with a white plate. On the drive home he said that it was the only way he knew how to show his appreciation, a thank-you gift for being around. And I said, Baby. I love your way.
Mega Plaza was more promising. Rent is cheapo, the space just righto. And it's right across Robinson's Galleria. Original plan was to buy, but since rent's affordable, was able to convince W to hold-off purchasing a space. Will transform home office into entertainment center instead. Woohoo.
Then, so happy with the possibility, W got me an electric guitar --- bare mahogany with a white plate. On the drive home he said that it was the only way he knew how to show his appreciation, a thank-you gift for being around. And I said, Baby. I love your way.
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